Ah, freak out!!

Last weekend I realized that I only had two and a half weeks left before this little person was going to be joining our family. I have known that it was coming but it jsut hit me how soon that was. So I wanted to get the clothes out and wash them. Since we have never found out what we are having, I have quite a bit of netrual colors (for a boy) and probably just a few extra pinks and purples. Most of which came from people when Kira was born. (I am not complaining, my favorite outfit ever came from our home teacher and his wife while in Logan.) Anyways, back to freaking out. All our totes of clothes are in the gargage. I went out with Arik to tell him which ones we needed and I could not find the 0-3 month tote. All other sizes were out there. I really started to freak out. Our baby would not have any clothes and we really didn't want to go out and buy tons of clothes. It bothered me all weekend and poor Arik had to deal with me complaining and really freaking out. Finally he brought in the 3-6 and 6-9 totes and said just look to see if maybe there are some in here. Low and behold, half of the clothes in the 6-9 tote were the 0-3 month stuff and there was 0-9 month stuff in the 3-6 tote. I sure feel a lot better.

I washed everything and separated the netrual colors and the "girly" stuff or to put it in Arik's words, "The clothes my boy won't be caught dead in." We really do have a lot of netrual clothes so we are set. If it is a boy we will have problems after 3 months.

We have the baby's room pretty much ready. This is the first time we can actually decorate and paint the baby's room. I picked out a nice light green for the room and Arik is going to paint this weekend. I am taking the girls to pick out stickers to put on the walls, so that they can feel apart of it.

I just can't believe how fast this has gone. I think that time has gone faster will each pregnancy. The girls are so excited and ready for thier own baby in the house. They have been great with helping me and I am afraid that once the baby comes they won't help as much. Right now they say, "Mom can't bend over. or Her tummy is in the way." They really do a lot and I might miss that. At least I can use the whole having a baby for 6 weeks or so.

After what happened with Brookelyn and then Kira I thought that Arik was okay with everything but the other night he rolled over in bed and looked at me and said, "What if I lose you this time?" I wanted to cry. I thought that since Kira's delivery was so nice that he wouldn't worry as much. Boy was I wrong. I smiled at him and told him, "Sorry but you are stuck with me forever and I don't just mean after death. I plan on living a long time on earth and you will just have to deal with me." I am grateful for the priesthood and knowing that we both can receive blessings before we go in and have this baby. I think that is the only way we have come out of the other two. This time will be no different. It is a joy to have the knowledge we do.