The Wonderment that is....

So here I am up late because I can't sleep very well without Arik. Such when I get used to him being gone he comes home and we start the whole process over. But that is not the point of this post.

As I was checking on the girls, I looked at Brookelyn sleeping so peacefully and so quiet. What a wonderment that I have two beautiful girls. What a wonder that I met Arik, that we lasted long enough to get married (those of you that know that story understand.), and how we are lasting now.

I love to watch my girls doing the smallest of things and see what great, wonderful, joys they are in my life. Sure I want to crawl in a hole sometimes and hide but at the end of the day I would not trade them for anything.

Brookleyn is such a joy in my life. How did I ever live without her? She constantly is learning and growing and wants to be so big so fast. Her encouragement while I work out brings a smile to my face and helps me pull through instead of breaking the tv. Her constant care for her sister, is amazing. She is bossy, showy and loves attention, but I would not have her any other way. We signed her up for soccer and she gets to start playing next month. She is so excited and is happy to know that Lukas will be on her team also. She takes care of us and just wants us to be happy. The great connection between a mother and daughter is the greatest gift anyone could ever have. I had it on the other end and would not trade anything for the relationship I have with my mother. I can only hope that Brookelyn and I can be like that the older she gets.

Kira is the other great joy in my life. I can't think of life without her chaing her sister trying to do everything she does. I smile when she gets frustrated because she can't do what Brookelyn can. I love to see her learn and grow. Like pulling the chair to the counter so that she can see what is going on and can reach all the things Brookelyn puts up there so Kira won't get them. She is sneaky and way too smart for her own good. I feel like I got brillant children that are way too good for me. I am afraid that I will hold them back and I pray and hope that I don't. Kira loves to talk and is right there next to Brookelyn in everything. She is very patience with Brookelyn when Brookelyn tries to play mom. She is just way too cute.

What could be greater than Family??? I have decided that nothing is. Elder Holland once said, "No matter what degree of glory I obtain. If my wife is not there, it can not be Exaluation." What a powerful statement. I feel the same for my sweet wonderful husband. We have our moments but at the end of the day, I want to tell him all the things that happened that day. I want to know of his successes and help him through his failures. I want to be there for him in the rain or in 100 degree heat. The sleet and snow. I love him. I think back to the day we were married and sealed for all time and eternity. I could not look at him without laughing. I know that might not be the reaction some of you had or think is "right" response, but for us it fit. We went through a lot to get us there and that was the greatest day of my life. Other moments have gotten close (ex Brookelyn and Kira's births), but I wonder. If it wasn't for that day, would all the others be so great. Would the greatest of such moments have been lessened if not for that day. I am gratfeul that I never have to know. We are in this together. (Not to be confused with "WE are all in this together" from HSM.) If you do not know what HSM is you must not have girls. :)

So maybe I am all sentimental because I miss my husband and the house is quiet for the only few hours out of the day that it is, but I am grateful for these minutes to ponder my family, my husband and my two wonderful, beautiful daughters.